do i still have a place there?
why is it that i feel so invisible there today.?
am i still needed as an A.I. .?
or you dun need/want me there anymore.?
since you all have a person who's of a higher level than me, and is fitter..
and can join the students in the training.. and warm up, a better A.I. than me bah.
i guess..
a second poom..
when he converts, he's a second dan.
which is of a higher level than me.
does it mean that i suck? cause i cant go for my second dan grading anytime soonn?
and cant join the training with the students?
i dunno if i am needed, at all.
the only time i felt that i was there,
was when the new guy came along.
and i was the only one 'free' to take care of him.
so is my job there just to take the newcomers,
and just teach them the basics?
there were 3 other I. there.
with me not around, they still could conduct the class as per normal.
seriously, maybe i should just go mia from them.
and just ps jackie.
but, most prob, i'll still take this as my cca bah.
joycelyn told me that maybe i feel this way is cause i too long never train there le.
is it true?
tsk.
there's a chance that i'll stop, since there's no one to keep me training there alr.
i feel so wrong now. haix.
FML.